RIP Wolfgang

My sweet kitty of 15 years, Wolfgang, passed away today.

He was suffering from kidney failure. He went downhill so fast and was in obvious discomfort. Letting him go was such a difficult decision for me, but I knew that it would be selfish of me to expect him to stick around just to keep me from being sad.

His last hour at home was spent curled up with me in the sunshine. My other cat (Boris), who had been picking on Wolfgang during his illness, came over and started washing Wolfie's face. Then he rested his head on Wolfgang's shoulder for a few minutes. He was saying his good byes.

After that I drove him to the vet, where he was sent on his way to the Rainbow Bridge.

The tears will not stop falling. I know that it was the right decision, but that doesn't stop it from hurting.

RIP Wolfgang. Thank you for the 15 years of unconditional love. Mommy misses you.

How Time Flies...aka: Catching Up With Me!

Well folks, I know that it's been a LONG time since I've last posted. And a WHOLE lot has happened since then!!!

Let's see.....we have a new President. Michael Jackson is now moonwalking "on the other side". I have managed to maintain a relationship for longer than 4 months. All monumental occasions!

I can't remember if I even mentioned the new guy in previous posts. I'm guessing that if I did, it was very briefly. We only got together a few days before the 2008 Breast Cancer 3 Day (which henceforth will be known as BC3D).

Or maybe it wasn't briefly (since I am not exactly frugal with words). In any case......here is the run down.

He's a guy who I went to school with from 3rd grade to 6th grade. After my family moved away, I lost all contact with anyone from that time. The weekend before the '08 BC3D, I had been getting in touch with people from high school. On a whim, I also decided to see if I could find any familiar names from the 3rd-6th grade years.

Sure enough.......I did! My old Spelling Bee Nemesis, Neil. Who happens to live 4 miles from my apt. He remembered me as well, so we made a "phone date". And talked for hours. So then we went to dinner. And talked for hours. And have basically been inseparable ever since (going on 9 months now).

We have a lot of things in common. And he has this way of getting me to laugh when I'm in a really, REALLY down mood. It really does feel as though we've stayed connected over the past 25yrs.

That's not to say that there haven't been some growing pains along the way. I often set myself up for disappointment by expecting too much from people. This time was no different. He has a relatively impenetrable wall built up around his emotions b/c of past relationship disasters. And I do have trust issues b/c of MY past relationship disasters. I thought that our history and instant chemistry would eliminate such roadblocks. It didn't. But the difference between this relationship and past ones (for me at least) is the fact that we both care enough to talk through the issues.

Granted, there are still times when I want a bit more than he is able to give. But I've also learned that if it's going to happen, it has to happen on his time schedule, not mine. So, for the moment, I've left the ball in his court and am just sitting back and waiting to see what happens.

He's a dork (and proud of it). He can be a pain in the ass. But I love him and wouldn't have him any other way. Well.....maybe I'd get rid of the snoring.

Other news: My "baby" sister finished her freshman year of college. My "baby" brother got his own apartment. One cousin got engaged and another is getting ready to start graduate school (I used to baby sit all of these "kids"). My god-daughter is going to China as part of a Student Ambassador program. My niece finished 1st grade. My nephew will be turning 3 in Aug. Damn.....time flies.

I signed back up for the '09 BC3D. This time as a Crew Member. That means I won't have to spend countless hours training and fund-raising. I only need $300 instead of $2000+. And it will give me a chance to experience the event from a completely difference perspective. The Crew members night not be walking 60 miles, but we don't exactly sit on our butts either! We are up at 3:00 am and don't get to bed until close to midnight. Every minute of the day is occupied. I am looking forward to it.

I regained 20 of the 40lbs that I lost between the 07 and 08 BC3Ds. The BF bought a Wii system, with the Wii Fit option. We've been using it to burn calories. And we've been eating a lot more salads. This past week hasn't been the best for us (kind of fell off the bandwagon over July 4th weekend). But I think we'll get back on track....STARTING TONIGHT!!!!

WOW!!! That's a lot of stuff for one post. I have a bit more to share, but I will save that for another day.

TAKE CARE!!!

I DID IT....AGAIN!!!!

Just a quick TOUCH BASE to let everyone know that I completed my 2nd Breast Cancer 3 day Walk. I walked all 60 miles and had NO PROBLEMS with my feet or legs at all. A teeny blister that isn't worth mentioning and a wee bit of soreness (which ibuprofen and heat packs took care of quickly).

I did get laid up with an ass-kicking upper respiratory thing for a few days, but I'm all better now.

I will post more info and pix of the walk when I have some free time.



I do have a few personal update stories though!



A) Leopards don't change their spots and JACKASSES will be jackasses until they die. The guy that I dated many years ago, who left, but came back....? He left again. Without even a courtesy call. I was beating myself up over it for a few months but then realized that HE was the one who should be embarrassed, not me. So, I got over it and moved forward.



B) FACEBOOK IS COOL. I was looking up old high school people and, on a whim, looked up people who may have graduated from a school that I went to from 3rd-6th grade. And I found a name I recognized. In fact, he was one of my friends (and an old arch nemesis when it came to tests and spelling bees. CREPE!!!). After my family moved away, I never kept in touch with anyone at all, so I was pleasantly surprised when responded back and knew exactly who I was. We started chatting.....for hours....until 4:00 am. Turns out that he and I have some things in common.



Such as: going to school for scientific stuff. I got a chemisty degree and work for a pharmaceutical company. He got his degree in pharmacy. And, even though we grew up hours away from Phila, we both settled in the SAMN DAMN TOWN (seriously....4 miles apart from each other). Our personalities seem similar as well.....sense of humor, sarcasm (although mine is not quite as fine-tuned and cutting as his. I'M WORKING ON IT!!!).



I won't deny that it's freaking me the fuck out BUT I'm also having a blast playing "connect the dots" between 6th grade and present day. It doesn't seem like 25yrs have passed at all.

(Oh..... he made me a mean chicken noodle soup when I was sick. I don't think I've ever had a guy cook for me. EVER. Unless you count microwave popcorn).



Anyway, I guess that's all for now.

IT'S HERE!!!

In less than 24hrs I will be doing my 2nd Breast Cancer 3 day Walk.

I'M SO EXCITED!

I just hope that I survive. I did a hell of a lot of training, but this week I am tempting fate by making myself sleep deprived.

I am reconnecting with an old friend.....and playing catch up from the past 25yrs involves lots of late night phone calls (and very little sleep). As much as I enjoy playing "connect the dots" from 6th grade until present time, I have a feeling it's going to kick my ass this weekend.

Packing DONE!!!

I am not sure how I managed it, given the total LACK of energy I had all weekend, but my duffel bag is packed and ready to go.

I am very, very, VERY excited about meeting up with my teammates in 4 MORE DAYS!!!!

On a good note.....I seemed to have harnessed in the upper respiratory thing I was dealing with relatively early. FINGERS CROSSED it stays that way!

no. no. no. OH HELL NO!!!!

Woke up this morning with a stuffy nose and a scratchy throat.

NONONONO. I am not getting sick. After all of the damn work I have done to raise the money and train for this walk, there is NO WAY I AM MISSING IT!!!!

I don't care if I have to have my teammates pull me in a wagon every single mile of the way!!!

I am taking all kinds of supplements and drinking a butt-load of green tea.

BECAUSE I CANNOT BE SICK!!! I WILL NOT BE SICK!!!!

O N E M O R E W E E K ! ! ! !